Well, well, well! It has been ages since I have written any sort of blog! I always intend too and then something ends up taking priority and my blog is once again left on the back burner. Quite honestly I have found myself much busier than I have been in a very long time. One million life changes, projects, and plans on the radar. All of them good and exciting so nothing to complain about but none-the-less, very busy.
I started a blog for Quinn and I over a year ago when we were planning our trip to Australia. After the mess of last year, once our trip was over I never did update it again. Ive decided to get that blog up and going once again so people can keep updated with what is going on with the two of us. This blog will be kept as my own personal blog and bountifullyblessed.wordpress.com will be used as mine and Quinns blog. If you’re interested in checking out the latest and greatest going on in our lives feel free to check it out there.
Until then, my blogging little butt is going to continue to be a little lazy on here until I get a bit more settled. But who knows…maybe ill find myself all inspired to write at three in the morning tonight now that ive written this! Lots of love being sent your way….
Sundays are my absolute favourite day this time of year. This one day a week means I get to hang out with my FIANCE all day! I cant wait to wake up already!
PS: Who else is this lucky to have a fabulous photographer sister to take a million pictures of them? Thanks sis!
This week, I am thankful for….
1. The sunshine – my short lived three month friendship that comes around once a year. Those rays of happiness shine down on me and cause instant reactions such as dancing in my car and talking to the birds.
2. My job is a daily blessing, filled with so many smiles, giggles, and poopy diapers that I cant help but be grateful for what I get to do every day
3. Cherry season! Nom, nom, nom…
4. Happy People. Ohhh, how grateful I am to those who make me smile and keep my heart light.
5. Shellac Nails…my newest love to making my fingers oh-so-beautiful
6. My new clothes. Yes people, I am shallow enough to admit my new clothes sure make me happy. Comfy, soft, snuggly, “I don’t care what this looks like”, clothes….oh how well you treat me!
7. Straight anything. Hangers straightned and evenly space, straight lines, straightned out cupboads and fridges, straight photos, straight shoe line. Straight people…I cant get enough!
8. Thunderstorms. Tis the season and Im loving it! Each and every thunderstorm this year leads me to a million memories of my Dad as I watch the lightning dance around the sky and listen to the rain pour down. Love. Love.
9. My sponsor child Allan; oh how much this young boy has made me smile in the past few weeks!
10. Cute boys at camp…my cute boy at camp…my cute boy at camp with me in just TWO short days!
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I was blessed beyond blessed almost a year ago when a certain handsome someone came prancing into my world, unannounced and uninvited. You see, I had got this whole independent life all figured out and I quite enjoyed doing things at my own pace. Besides, I had been in a relationship or two throughout the years and truly felt nothing that connected me enough to another person or inspired me to try again. I simply was not interested in a relationship at this point and I was content doing life on my own.
Suddenly the gift of a bull-headed, tender-hearted man landed in my lap and I was instantly enamoured. Our long-running two-way crush had brought this man to my mind a handful of times throughout the years but our relationship was fulfilling enough as a friendship so neither one of us pursued anything further. This year however we decided to change that and I can honestly say it is one of the best decisions I have made in my life so far. I am head over heals for this BIRTHDAY BOY and thrilled beyond measure to be sharing life with him.
I cannot tell you how many times in the last eight months I have said to people “I don’t know a man in the world who would trade positions with Quinn right now” and really, it is the truth. Quinn and I were in a fairly new relationship when my Dad fell out of the sky and suddenly our fun little dating world turned into emotionally deep roller-coaster. Poor Quinn was trapped in his seat – front row, bars down, seat belts locked. What impresses me the most is that at any point, Quinn could have yelled for help and jumped off the ride whenever he wanted, but he choose not too, as a matter of fact he held on tight and sometimes even lifted his arms embracing the ride right along side of me.
SO I would like to wish my handsome man a very happy birthday. I am filled with gratitude at the strength he has given me, at the gift of friendship he has offered in my most difficult time, and at the ability to bring out in me the capacity to open up and be vulnerable, to laugh through the darkness, and to share my tears with another person.
Happy Birthday to my dearest friend – today truly is a day worth celebrating.
I have so many things to say to past and present people in my life.
I wish I could sit them all down in a line and let the words of my heart spew from my mouth.
I would let the tears fall, the anger rise, the forgiveness shine.
I would let honesty tumble from my every word, clear my conscious, and lay down my vulnerabilities.
I would stop worrying about them and focus on me, even if just for the moment.
I would forget the consequences, bask in the freedom, and I would truly let my heart song sing.
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Spring cleaning cannot wait, it has come upon me in the dead of winter. It is time to get dirty, time to scrub, time to put on the gloves wipe away the dust and try to make things shiny again.
I dont know how but I am going to begin, even if it means cleaning one inch at a time. I can do this…at the very least I can try.
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Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck.
I sink in the miry depths, where there is no foothold.
I have come into the deep waters; the floods engulf me.
Psalms 69: 1-2
I don’t even wanna breathe right now
All I wanna do is close my eyes
But I don’t wanna open them again
Until I’m standing on the other side
I don’t even wanna be right now
I don’t wanna think another thought
And I don’t wanna feel this pain I feel
And right now, pain is all I’ve got
-Steven Curtis Chapman, I Will Trust You
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Somewhere along the line trouble finds you. It disguises itself as a beautiful reassuring thought, or a calming to your madness. Its crawls under your skin and cuddles in like a cold person does to a warm bed. It breathes upon your chest ever so softly and whispers sweet nothings into your ear. It delicately handles your sense of unease and reassures you by delving into your mind, erasing your fears before you even have time to give them a voice. This sweet tender fuel trickles down my throat too easy, too smooth, and suddenly I am aware there is danger creeping around the corner, a set of teeth digging into my skin.
I drink you in, I swallow you up. I fall for your lies, I give in to your temptation. “Why” is my poison, it is my danger drug. Without realizing it, I am gently sucked in to the tornado of “why’s” and I begin to drown. Gasping for air, begging to find a way up…a way out. I unconsciously invite this monster into my mind and within a few short moments I am paralyzed with anger. But with each and every taste of trouble there also comes a magic moment, the point where you just know, where suddenly you have the gift to see clearly and every sense in your body screams ‘this in no longer a game…run’. At that moment you have a choice, gamble and stay a while longer, or walk away for good.
I refuse to accept you. I refuse to belong to your world. I will do everything in my power to make it clear that you do not control me, I control you! So tonight, I will rebuff you, tomorrow I will do the same. As many times as it takes I will kindly ask you to leave, to pack-up the bags you have strewn about in my mind, and gracefully retract. “Why” will not change this, there is no answer acceptable enough to make this ok. And so pleading begins, “why” please move on, remove yourself from my mind and stop forcing your way into my spirit. You are not welcome here.
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As he thinks in his heart, so is he
There is a far away land that I hear people speak about
It sounds magical, beautiful, simple and kind
I imagine it as a place of stillness, a place where the calm gathers to stay
And although it is something I desire, a place my heart mildly longs for
I fear it will be overwhelmingly restrictive, an alluring concept unattainable for my roaming mind
I pass through places, pass through people, pass through life, looking
One day I will know it will come, one day it will be mine
And until then I drift and dream, I wander and gaze
I question if I will ever find HOME, or if instead home will find me
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